About 4 weeks ago I was feeling anxious, I felt I was losing that basic essence of excitement about life that I had found in Thailand. I started to write a short and simple reminder to myself to just enjoy life. I never finished it.
We’ve been lucky that the last few days in Toronto and had beautiful Spring weather – clear skies, sun and warm weather. Yesterday I took advantage of the gorgeous spring weather and went to High Park to see the Cherry Blossoms.
I made a wish in Thailand. I wished to be shown the right path to take, for strength in the next chapter in my life, to never look back but only forward.
Then I rang the bell. Continue reading
This jet lag is awful. I’ve never felt so physically & mentally exhausted. The worst is the wave of exhaustion that flows in out of nowhere. I’ll be going about my day-to-day life & than bam! I am exhausted & just want to sleep. Why? “Oh yea it’s 3 am in Thailand right now, the place I’ve been living for a month. No wonder I’m feeling weird.” But, I’m sleeping better & now it is time to start telling you about my Thailand adventure. I’m going to begin by telling you why I went in the first place.
Once a year draws to an end & a new one begins, I tend to get introverted & contemplative. I go through this process of recalling the things I wanted to do, the things I did, the things I didn’t do in the past year & what I want to do in the new year.
Maybe it is because I have to endure winter on top of the realization that time will pass without waiting for me, but I enter a semi-vegetated state of laziness in early January. I really do not want to do much, not even write.
Riding a bike down a hill.
Long walks with purpose.
I think most people agree that 2016 has not been the greatest year. With the deaths, the wars, the terror attacks, the crazy politicians. I can attest that on a personal side that has 2016 definitely had some very low points.
2016 kicked me in the ass. 2016 got me so low that I cried in my kitchen after the 20th rejection in a never-ending job search, drank too much wine & feared how I was going to pay for the basics in life. Even after the ass-kicking that was 2016, I choose to focus on the positives of the year as I believe that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
I discovered a forest the other day.
I usually stick to the paved path when I walk through this park as I know where it will take me & get me there quickly. But, yesterday I felt the pull of the path less travelled, as I wanted to immerse myself in nature for a moment, to escape the silent demands of humanity.
I haven’t written for a while because something occurred in my life. I do not want to go into detail about what at this time, but I know you would understand why it took me away from The Kollektive for a while. What I will tell you is that I once again find myself thinking how strange life is & how it throws things into your path when you least expect them.
I have always thought that I am not one of those early riser, happy, morning people & have recently become a complete night owl. The one that stay up until 4 am & sleeps until noon. Which is great, if you are a college student, but less great when you are an adult trying to get things done. Things like write for this blog, but there always seemed to be a good excuse. It’s too hot. I have no ideas. I forgot to update my domain. Allergies.
But, this morning I woke up at 6 am & felt this magical essence of happy creative productivity. I was like “I get it guys! I get you morning people! This is amazing! Hilary I get it!”
So here I am awake at 7 am on a Monday after an amazing nights sleep, during which I actually had dreams, feeling awesome & eager to conquer the day. As I write this I have decided that this is day one of my sleep reform as I am going to be morning person this fall. To help me keep this new-found eagerness to wake up early I am going to prepare a list of all of the reasons why being a night person is less than ideal.