Grief is a funny thing. At times grief makes you think nothing is wrong, that nothing has really changed & that you are completely okay. You sit there & wonder why you are not sad or why you don’t feel much of anything at all. Then you randomly find yourself crying as you fold laundry.
If I had known
At times I belive that I could have prepared myself for dealing with death somehow by reading the right books or the right blogs. I realize I am deluding myself with this thought. That nothing would prepare me for this & that I need to give myself a break & just feel what I feel.
Today I can admit that I feel sad. That there is nothing anyone can do about it. That there isn’t really much I can do about it, except to feel sad & go about life.
Creamy Vegan Broccoli Soup
Yesterday’s comfort soup was I Love Vegan’s “Creamy Vegan Broccoli Soup“. I followed the recipe as is & it was indeed delicious. It was green (requirement after the Curry & Tomato soup both being red), it was creamy, it was warm & if you should forget to add the Broccoli .. totally forgiving of such oversights.
Soup Making for the Soul
Cooking soup makes me feel better, a little less sad & happy to be feeding others. I thing soup has become my go-to meal at the moment because a bowl of good, warm soup feels like a hug from the inside. And I need hugs right now.
I won’t tell you how to deal with your own grief, feeling of sadness, depression or whatever other negative feeling. I won’t tell you to go make some soup, but, feel free like giving it a try if you are so inclined. But, I hope knowing that someone else out there is dealing with some grief & sadness helps you.